sleep. my lovely best - and worst - friend. 3:42 AM

Sunday morning, which some will refer to as yesterday morning and others as this morning, depending, I went to sleep at maybe 3 or 4am. I woke up at 10 when my phone's alarm incorrectly went off. Went back to sleep. I woke up again at Noon when my family returned from church (I don't know if they didn't wake me up to go or just tried and failed). I went back to sleep. I woke up again, finally, at 2:32pm via a call from one of my favorites.

And now, at 4:00am, I cannot sleep.

I like to sleep, to get my rest. I enjoy being able to sleep, considering the restless semester I just left behind. But damn. This is a bit much.

And then...I have a 1/4 day long meeting tomorrow with my executive board. It's at 2. I have to get up in the morning and curl my hair because I can't show up on campus looking all kinds of crazy. That's kinda okay during the semester because things get rough sometimes. But during the break? Nah. So I know that's gonna take at least 2.5 hrs. I wanted to leave the house at Noon to go talk to financial aid and print things for the meeting. I doubt that's gonna happen. If it should, then I should be curling by 9:30. Including makeup, food and getting dressed? 8:30, maybe even 8:00. When did I become such a girl?

So now, if I even fall asleep, I'll get 4 hours. Most certainly not a good look.

So now what?

Guess I'll finish watching cartoons...The Flintstones is coming on soon. *kanye shrug*

"world can't hold me, too much ambition" 11:57 PM

I feel good great about 2010. I used to be full of dreams and goals and...well, ambition. Somewhere in the last year or more I lost it. My motivation was missing. Dreams were deferred. Goals were gone.

Everyone keeps saying things like:

"Change doesn't occur overnight, you know."

"Honestly, how many of you really stick to your resolutions?"

"The new decade doesn't even begin until 2011."

Chill. No one asked for all that. Nonetheless, I have this indescribable feeling about the year(s) to come. I graduate next year, hopefully (the things I do for an extra degree). I'm motivated more than ever to start my magazine, to stick with and improve my graphic design work, to eventually open that cafe/art gallery I've always dreamed of...

I'm excited to network, socialize and, oddly, partyyyy (sidebar).

This is the year of my 21st birthday...and the year my goals and dreams finally come to some sort of fruition.

"Get ready, 'cause here I come..."